Giving Tuesday 

So I was on my way to work this morning at 0730 hours and listening to the radio when they said it was Giving  Tuesday. the reason, they explained that this came about is because of the whole black Friday weekend shopping and cyber Monday where people go crazy buying stuff they want. so it’s only fitting that you would want to give a little something back to the world.

I’m a shopaholic. it took me a long time to realize this and to admit it to myself. I got into a lot of debt, into some financial issues. I know it may seem funny, it’s a real issue. do you know how HARD it was for me NOT to shop? But I did it! I did not buy one thing. I felt so proud of myself. this is the first time in years I have not bought anything on Black Friday.

Anyway back to the matter at hand, so I heard about Giving Tuesday and I thought what a great idea to make someone’s day! While at Timmies (for those non-Canadians) Timmies is coffee shops all over Canada that serve breakfast and other foods. I decided to pay for the car behind me. it came out $2.25 or something like that and I knew That I would make that persons day. What I didn’t realize was how satisfying it made me feel. Even the Timmies employee got a smile out of it! 

So going forward I intend to do something nice for a stranger and it can be anything !  Help with carrying stuff, compliment them, ask how their day is going, you just never know when a nice gesture will change a person’s whole being! so let’s continue this beautiful trend! 😘

*Peeking*

Hi!

It has been a while and look really late at night too! Anyway, I just needed to get something off my chest really quickly. I have started writing again, I was in a long pause there. I started writing about something that happened to my family and me about 27 years ago . It’s actually a bit painful,  I hadn’t thought about it for a very long time, clearly. As a kid I thought it was and adventure, as an adult now all I can think is wow! My mom has to be one of the strongest women I know. One of the reasons I want to tell this story is to show the world how amazing mothers can be and there’s nothing they won’t do to protect their children. So far I just have chapter one and I hope to finish it soon.

Anyway, that is all for now! Goodnight!

Stephen King

Hi guys!

So I came here really quickly because this article showed up on my FB account and wanted to share it. It’s Stephen King giving great advise on writing. I really, really need to focus on writing more, however things have been crazy for the past few months. I’ve sat down I think maybe once to write! 😦 So Here’s the link if you’re all interested. You can either click on it or copy & paste to your browser. I thought he gave great pointers!

http://www.businessinsider.com/stephen-king-on-how-to-write-2014-7

To write or not to write…?

Hello everyone! It’s great to be back and to be writing. Just because I haven’t been here doesn’t mean I haven’t been writing other things. I have, I wrote 3 short novels that I don’t know what to do with. Seriously, should I publish or leave them be? I’ll leave them alone for now.

So, as you all know I would love to be a published author, who doesn’t? Those of us who love literature always dream of making it big. And by big I mean, having hundreds of thousands of people reading my book, that would be an amazing feeling! The money is just a bonus, at least for me it is!

I published my book of poetry and I was very excited but then looking back now, maybe I’m not a poet?  I have seen and read some amazing poetry here, that really compared to them I feel like a child. Very discouraging.

The other problem? I have seen and read some of the indie authors and I have to say whooaaa… Do I sound like that? Some people have awesome talent, others have had the education for it and many times you have both. I never went to school for it, although that was my passion as a teenager. Some writers out there, they really don’t have the talent for it, I saw this book about a woman and her four alien men. Ummm…. really? People read this? WOW. I’m not trying to criticize about the type of work you write, but it’s really disheartening for us who want to write a book about something meaningful. I’m not trying to change the world, I’m just trying to write a good book that you can talk about with your friends and hopefully recommend!

The first time I picked up a book, I was transferred to a whole completely world, it was exhilarating and I wanted to create that for others too, I still do.

But am I good enough? My family and friends have been very encouraging and they always tell me I have great stories. But am I a great writer? There’s a difference you see, I could come up with awesome stories, but do I have the talent to write them? I don’t know.

There’s a novel that I’m working on now, and I haven’t let anyone read it, I would like to finish it, edit it and then have someone read it, to tell me the truth.

You know that saying your biggest critic is yourself? They obviously never had sisters, because my sisters are my biggest critics. Not that I’m complaining, but they will plunge a knife, then twist it when it comes to critiquing my work, and then stab me again and keep twisting it until there’s no blood left. Half the time I will agree with them and they do give me great feed back, the other half, I don’t agree with them. But I guess that’s to be expected.

At this point I’m still going to continue writing my stories, hopefully someone across my city will pick it up, read it and enjoy it. Is that so much to ask for?

I love talking with you guys, my thoughts are everywhere and I may not make a lot of sense, but it really does help to clear my head!

Another death

This year it seemed the theme was death. The brother of an old friend passed away this weekend.  When my friend Tracy passed away last month I wasn’t able to cry,  I felt like in shock and in disbelief.  Today when I found out about my friends brother passing it was like I crumbled down and I just cried. I was at work too so I had people coming up to me asking if I was okay.

I hate when people ask me that. Obviously I’m not okay and it makes me cry harder.  No I don’t want you to say anything,  don’t hug me, don’t touch me just continue like you haven’t seen anything,  just let me be. I know I sound ungrateful, but breaking down at work is the worst.

It’s not that I’m pretending that’s it’s okay but if I’m gonna cry I want to do it in the privacy of my own room. 

Ugh what a year!  Last year a very close friend of mine died,  I found out through Facebook.  I was there checking it at work and saw R.I.P Dave. I was thinking what are his crazy friends up to this time? I clicked on his page and see the whole list of comments. That was devastating.  He lived in NYC, so I couldn’t go to his funeral. But again I broke down, that time I couldn’t even say a word, needless to say I was sent home – driven home by my supervisor.

Till this day I still receive Candy crush comments from his profile. It’s so depressing.

I’m really hoping next year will be a better one.

Sickness

Hello!

So I have been away due to sickness, (I wish I could say it was due to being on vacay). I was – scratch that – I’m still sick with an ear infection. It was so bad that my doctor told me both my eardrums were on the verge of bursting and if they did I would need surgery. This was the most painful ear infection I had ever gotten. I’m prone to them so I know how they feel, but this – I had never felt it before. I was given Tylenol 3 for the pain, but it made me so drowsy, all I did was sleep.

I’m now back to work and in a stupor – I may not come back tomorrow since I’m still not feeling 100%, even 90% I would return but right now I’m like at 40% if not less.

I have been reading the rest of you blog and they’re all so nice! 🙂

I apologize for not having written before, I will keep you updated.