This year it seemed the theme was death. The brother of an old friend passed away this weekend. When my friend Tracy passed away last month I wasn’t able to cry, I felt like in shock and in disbelief. Today when I found out about my friends brother passing it was like I crumbled down and I just cried. I was at work too so I had people coming up to me asking if I was okay.
I hate when people ask me that. Obviously I’m not okay and it makes me cry harder. No I don’t want you to say anything, don’t hug me, don’t touch me just continue like you haven’t seen anything, just let me be. I know I sound ungrateful, but breaking down at work is the worst.
It’s not that I’m pretending that’s it’s okay but if I’m gonna cry I want to do it in the privacy of my own room.
Ugh what a year! Last year a very close friend of mine died, I found out through Facebook. I was there checking it at work and saw R.I.P Dave. I was thinking what are his crazy friends up to this time? I clicked on his page and see the whole list of comments. That was devastating. He lived in NYC, so I couldn’t go to his funeral. But again I broke down, that time I couldn’t even say a word, needless to say I was sent home – driven home by my supervisor.
Till this day I still receive Candy crush comments from his profile. It’s so depressing.
I’m really hoping next year will be a better one.